My days have been getting better and slowly I am finding my way. It's still scary trying to navigate my way but each day brings a newness/freshness that I am learning to embrace. I think about Alex a lot. I dream about how it would have been having him here. I talk to him often and in my own way I carry him with me as I move forward.
My journey has continued to draw me close to God. I find my studying and praying to have more meaning. In an attempt to make sense of all that has happened I have a thirst for God's word like never before. I long to be close to Him at all times.
I return to work next week......please keep me in your prayers. I know it is time but I have a lot of anxiety. I don't want to fail but I am afraid of succeeding????? How can I just go back like before? I feel so different. I just continue to pray and seek God.
Thank you all for your continued prayers.......