I still have crying spells and I obsess over Alex's pictures....I look at them constantly. He is just so darn cute! Today I was able to embrace the day...I had happy moments and sad moments. I laughed and I cried. I did not hold myself to one way of being. I allowed myself to simply be. And now, as I prepare to sleep I look forward to thinking about Alexander tonight...my sweet, sweet angel.
Just checking in......today has been an okay day. The hardest part of my day is getting out of bed. It symbolizes commiting to facing another day. Well, I got out of bed today :-)
I still have crying spells and I obsess over Alex's pictures....I look at them constantly. He is just so darn cute! Today I was able to embrace the day...I had happy moments and sad moments. I laughed and I cried. I did not hold myself to one way of being. I allowed myself to simply be. And now, as I prepare to sleep I look forward to thinking about Alexander tonight...my sweet, sweet angel.
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TDebby
8/8/2010 06:51:55 am
My Darlings, Keep pressing on & take it one day at a time. Alexander will be forever in your hearts and minds. We are praying for you.
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Brittany
8/9/2010 12:39:57 am
It's a long road, sweetie...but I promise the days get better. The best thing to do is feel, however it may be at any particular moment...just let yourself feel. I'm always here if you need someone who's been there.
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Latoya Barker
8/9/2010 03:09:32 am
This weekend has been soooooooooo long. Three members of my church had family members pass. Three funerals on Saturday. One of which was for a 3 year old little girl. I have share with my pastor and other's Alexander's story. Before the funeral he asked if I would be ok if he mention him. Life and death has truly been put into a different perspective for me. Realizing that no matter what the circumstances are God has the final say in who lives or dies. That we are all on loan. Some loans are short term. That is why it is so important to take advantage of the opportunity given to us to accept God into our life. People are dying younger and younger everyday. So many people are being touch by my nephew's life and existance, how ever short it was. God creates everyone for a distinct purpose, and I believe Alex was a vessel God used to reach out to the world. Words cannot express the amount of people just here in indy that have been blessed by his story. And my wonderfully strong and courageous sister. When you are feeling so weak, Know that you are a powerful instrument that God is using. Your testimony of God's strength, grace, mercy, and goodness through such a difficult assignment is SOOOOOOOOOO Powerful. I do not brag but testify to others every chance I get about true acceptance and surrender unto God. To put aside whatever feelings you have and say this is not my choice to make it is God's choice and however you want me to do this and whatever your will is Lord, Here I am. Not knowing the extent of physical and emotional heartache and pain, but to surrender your will and still be a walking talking testimony for God's goodness. BabyGirl You make a sista shout fa real. So keep your head up and know that The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect and keep you. You are a phenomenal Woman of God. Nations will be changed. Babies lives are being saved. You, Sean and alexander are world changers. I love you!!
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