Today's emotion? I really, really miss being pregnant with Alex something, even though I tried not too but at times took for granted. I remember physically being so sick all of the time and desperate for relief. Emotionally, I was sad a lot. Some days it was hard to "savor" each moment but now...I would do anything to feel his kicks and squirms again. I would suffer through the nausea and pain..I'd do it all over again if it meant carrying my precious boy again. I miss feeling him stretch. I miss feeling his hiccups. I loved our games of "push back". Most of all, I just loved us being one. Now sitting here...feeling my empty stomach and looking at my empty arms it just sucks.