Today marks two months since Alexander was born and received his angel wings. I wasn't quite sure how I was going to feel going into today but looking back now at 10:22pm I think it went well or as good as it could have considering. I started back working on Monday half days. I am so glad I decided to do that. When I arrived on Monday I was so full of anxiety and emotions I just cried when I walked in the door. I arrived to a warm welcome, a pretty sign and morning treats but I had to take some time to compose myself before starting the day. Sean gave me some really good advice the night prior - he said do all that you do to honor God...including your work. So I dried my eyes, slapped on a smile and commenced to doing my very best to honor God in all that I did.....my day went well. So today was day two of work and Alexander's two month angelversary. It was much easier to go to work today and I was able to focus on my work anticipating when I could just concentrate on Alex. I ended my half day by putting his pictures on my screen saver and background. As I drove home my focus shifted onto Alex and the tears fell. I was full of sadness and heartache. This happened from time to time the rest of the day. In between I managed to do my cheer director duties and attend Alexis's game she was cheering at. It's been a long evening but it was spent with the ones I love the most. I know Alexander would have loved it all and I yearned for him to be there all day. I miss him....I am sad.....but I am also grateful and blessed. I am joyful and I am hopeful. I end this day - this two month marker with a bittersweet smile. I am still very sad but hopeful about tomorrow.
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9/30/2010 10:20:29 pm
I REMEMBER ALEXANDER TRIMBLE! Chances are that someone in your life has been touched by pregnancy/infant loss. It could be a friend, a family member, or it could even be you. In 1988, President Reagan proclaimed October "National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month." Let's remember the babies whose lives were all too short.
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Angelle TrimbleI am a married mother to five amazing children. Four still walking with me on earth and one blessed soul we had to say goodbye to early. This is our journey about loving and letting go of our son Alexander who was diagnosed with Potter's Syndrome BRA at 20 weeks gestation. Archives
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