When I discovered I was carrying you I never would have imagined what our jouney together would entail. For months you grew inside of me making your presence known. And for months I anticipated our life together. Our journey took a turn that I would have never expected.....you were on short term loan. I was going to have to give you back :(. Knowing your fate never for one minute diminished my love for you or my commitment to you. I felt your spirit within me and I cherished every opportunity to bond with you. You were a fighter in the womb. You never succumbed to your suroundings. You fought for space, you kept moving, and you never gave up. Your determination and pure will kept me going whenever I grew weary. You defied odds every day and began touching lives all over. I was and still am so very proud to be your mother.
On July 28, 2010 you came into this world and you changed my life forever. Your presence melted the hearts of many. In 5 1/2 hours you spread a love that will last a lifetime. Your life had meaning, your life mattered, your life left an imprint on this world. Your cries were angelic. Every coo, whimper, and murmer were reminders that you were very much ALIVE and were doing God's work......love. Love overflowed in that room the day you were born. Everyone who held you felt it.
I am so proud of you and of how strong you were. You hung on to this world not for yourself but you hung around long enough to bless, touch, and show God's love to all who met you. You were such a brave Angel! I am so proud of you Alex! My love for you deepens more and more each day. And even though you have gone on you continue to teach me. Oh how I miss you and cannot wait to reunite with you. You are a part of me that I will never deny. One of the best gifts God has ever given me and I will carry you within the depths of my soul forever. When I look at pictures of you I smile, you were so beautiful, perfect in every way. When I think about you I cry...how I long to hold you. When I talk about you I have meaning.....you continue to touch lives.
I know that you are in a safe and happy place now and I am so happy you were chosen for such a special purpose. As I try to find the strength to continue this journey I am encouraged by thoughts of you. You make me want to do better.
Rest my sweet Alex, you have done a good work.
All my love,
All my life,