I remember when I was about 8yrs old my grandmother took my cousins and I on a trip with her travel group to DisneyWorld. I recall all of my cousins wanting to ride the main attraction at the time - it was an indoor rollar coaster in pitch black that went upside down and all around! The line was soooo long and the wait was well over an hour. I remember not wanting to tell my cousins that I was PETRIFIED and did not want to go on that rollar coaster. As we inched up in line warning signs began to appear - you know the "if you are elderly or have heart problems this is not the ride for you", "no small chidren", etc. After each sign my heart would just sink and sink, how in the world was I going to get on this thing ( and live). When it was finally our turn I took one step on the platform and came to my senses - NO WAY JOSE! I left so fast and my cousins were furious. I was the youngest so they could'nt leave me and they had waited in that line forever. But I had a choice and I choose not to get on.
They say grief is a lot like a roller coaster and unfortunately I didn't get a choice whether or not to get on the ride. I am on it..buckled and secured. But the grief coaster is like that Disney World Coaster - it is pitch black and goes upside down and all around! Because it's dark you don't know when the end is near or when the ride will stop. That is how I am feeling. I am on a wild ride that I dont know when or where it is going to stop.I enjoy the moments when I think there is a light peaking through. A light I interpret as hope. There are other times when it is so dark , there is a pain in the pit of my stomach and I cannot even fathom it will ever end. That darkness I interpret as hopelessness. The jerking curves, steep drops, and slow climbs all represent to me the battle between the two - hope vs. hopelessness.
Just some of my thoughts today but like I said, I am not a fan of roller coasters and I want off!.
They say grief is a lot like a roller coaster and unfortunately I didn't get a choice whether or not to get on the ride. I am on it..buckled and secured. But the grief coaster is like that Disney World Coaster - it is pitch black and goes upside down and all around! Because it's dark you don't know when the end is near or when the ride will stop. That is how I am feeling. I am on a wild ride that I dont know when or where it is going to stop.I enjoy the moments when I think there is a light peaking through. A light I interpret as hope. There are other times when it is so dark , there is a pain in the pit of my stomach and I cannot even fathom it will ever end. That darkness I interpret as hopelessness. The jerking curves, steep drops, and slow climbs all represent to me the battle between the two - hope vs. hopelessness.
Just some of my thoughts today but like I said, I am not a fan of roller coasters and I want off!.