Alexis, Austin, Sean, and Granddaddy
On October 10, 2010 the hospital we had Alex at (Northside Atlanta) hosted a Walk to Remember in honor of pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. My family and I attended and it was a very special moving morning. There was a beautiful cermony in which several mothers read poems or spoke of their precious babies that have gone home early. I was deeply touched to see how much emotion was still there in these moms - some whom lost thier babies years ago. I don't know in some way it validated how I am feeling. It made me feel "okay"....if they are still crying after years I am really okay still crying after a couple of months. It warmed my heart to see them lose thier composure. Does that sound horrible? It wasn't that I was happy they were sad, it was I was happy it was still okay for them to be sad, to cry, to weep. I felt a bond with each and every one of them - their pain reached me and I embraced it as my own. During the service something wierd happened - my phone started vibrating on and off by itself! Now, I am not trying to scare anyone but if God allows our babies to come around there were sure a lot of them there - who knows who was playing with my phone - was that you Alex?
After the ceremony there was a symbolic walk - we kind of scattered during the walk - Sean and Austin up ahead, my parents and bff behind, and Alexis and I straggling the middle - lol. We didnt talk much during that walk - we just walked. I couldn't help but look around at all of the families present. Some sporting matching shirts/colors. Others holding banners, pictures, and buttons. ALL remembering a precious life. We wrote messages and tied them to balloons and had a balloon release at the end -it was simply beautiful and it reminded me of the balloon release at Alexander's service. My Aunt was at the walk and captured a picture of the release that was incredible.
Before we left I had the pleasure of meeting one of the moms I have been emailing. She is one of the only other Potters babies born at that hospital and meeting face to face was surreal. I didnt expect to embrace her the way I did, I didnt expect the tears to just fall, I didnt expect to feel like I knew her but I do, well I know her pain, I know the journey she is on and she knows mine. It was a special moment. Overall the day was beautiful. The weather was nice and I enjoyed remembering Alexander with other families experiencing similar journeys.
After the ceremony there was a symbolic walk - we kind of scattered during the walk - Sean and Austin up ahead, my parents and bff behind, and Alexis and I straggling the middle - lol. We didnt talk much during that walk - we just walked. I couldn't help but look around at all of the families present. Some sporting matching shirts/colors. Others holding banners, pictures, and buttons. ALL remembering a precious life. We wrote messages and tied them to balloons and had a balloon release at the end -it was simply beautiful and it reminded me of the balloon release at Alexander's service. My Aunt was at the walk and captured a picture of the release that was incredible.
Before we left I had the pleasure of meeting one of the moms I have been emailing. She is one of the only other Potters babies born at that hospital and meeting face to face was surreal. I didnt expect to embrace her the way I did, I didnt expect the tears to just fall, I didnt expect to feel like I knew her but I do, well I know her pain, I know the journey she is on and she knows mine. It was a special moment. Overall the day was beautiful. The weather was nice and I enjoyed remembering Alexander with other families experiencing similar journeys.