when sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
"It is well, it is well with my soul"
I read this quote/poem in a book I have been reading and it brought me a lot of comfort and was a much needed reminder. Although I am still full of sorrow and my heart still aches the quote reminds me that no matter how bad this hand we have been dealt sucks....God is still so very good and Alexander is resting in the most peaceful precious place.....in His presence so it IS well with my soul. Alexander came into my life and left such a wonderful impact on me. I cannot help but think about God's love and goodness everytime I think about Alex. His life was so fulfilling and it embodied pure love. For so long I have been clinging on to the pain of losing him. I looked at the pain as the closest thing to having Alex. The pain brings me back to July 28th. For awhile I thought the pain in a way kept his memory alive, not fully understanding that letting that pain go is the only way to truly keep him. Now, dont get me wrong I know that the pain in not just going away. But, as long as I dwell on the pain I am living in the past. Instead God commisions us to have hope and faith that there is more to our lives than what we are currently experiencing. The hope of seeing Alexander welcoming me into the kingdom of God one day and the faith that I carry knowing that Alexanders life has and will continue to do a good work for the Lord allows me to cry and laugh at the same time singing "it is well with my soul".